I failed. I competed in a half marathon last weekend and failed.
I finished the race with a lifelong friend as we’ve always wanted to do (yay!), met my time goal, and felt significantly better than I ever have before in running a distance that long, but…I failed. I failed my expectations I set for myself before I became pregnant and a mom. Being a lifelong runner, before becoming pregnant but when thinking about having kids, I always had the mindset that I’d compete and finish a half marathon by the time my baby would turn 6 months old. This may not sound unreasonable for some, but oh boy, was it unrealistic for me. I did not even sign up for this race until my son was over 9 months old, and it was at the urging from a friend. Besides getting myself back into good shape in regards to cardiovascular function and endurance, I’d had to work at adjusting my whole life to another human being’s schedule-no small task. Sleep was hard enough to come by at times, and extra early wake ups to get a run in were not at the top of my priority list. Over time, with growing confidence as a Mom, an extremely supportive and encouraging husband, and a super smooth jogging stroller for cross training runs with my “coach”, I persisted and got my proverbial groove back. Not only did I get back into it, but I feel I’ve come out better than I was before. This is not a congratulatory post for myself (though we could all use more self-love), but encouragement for other active moms out there wondering when you’ll be able to get back into it. Mamas-be kind to yourselves. Take care of yourselves and by all means, make your health a priority along with that of your family. But remember that taking care of your health means that you ease back into exercise and heavier activity. Prioritizing working on a strong foundation in making sure your core and pelvic floor are in good, working order besides further stress is placed on them. Get the sleep that your body desperately needs when you’re able. Accept help from those you’re comfortable with. And remember to be kind enough to yourself to say “I may not have met expectations set by pre-baby me, but just like my physical body, this new Mom-me will strive to come out stronger than ever before to be a better me and role model for my son.”
In good health,